The Unbearable Darkness of Seeing: Part I
“The light which puts out our eyes is darkness to us.” HDT
I awoke to find myself falling down a deep, dark hole. How could this be happening when all the “omens” were aligned?
Yet now it seems I must agree with those who believe that people who see “signs” and Points of Convergence (see blog, Jan 14)) see nothing but a human construct born out of desperation: the need to ascribe meaning to it all. But there is no meaning, there only “is” which is to say, our state of being.
Good god! How many times must we have our world rocked before we give in…give up…realize coincidences are the children of chance? Fate does not exist…merely odd coincidences we want to call fate because of our seemingly inherent need to understand at least some of the chaos.
There is no meaning!!!
Convergence is happenstance! I have been running a fool’s errand lo these many years…always looking for the “connections” the universe has planned for me. Ha! Such hubris! The universe does not care. The universe does not contrive..the universe is but a molecular construct. Do not relegate events to unseen powers! That is just more/different religious bullshit.
Searching for Thoreau…lost. Where? I do not know!
Security…the word exists but the state of being secure does not. Security = chimera = an illusion or fabrication of the mind; an unrealizable dream. a construct with no real foundation – a castle in the air.
“If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them.” HDT
I set in pounds upon pounds of solid foundation. I did my work, more than my share, yet in the end I looked the fool. Do I now tell Thoreau to go to hell? He wouldn’t hear me anyhow.